
yesterday elaha asked me why i always look so mean in my neutral state. we were walking through a crowd of people and i guess i looked pissed.
it might’ve been the crowd, or it might’ve just been my face.
i’m actually pretty nice though, i think.

this fantastic mess.
dirty little whirlwind, i'm pinned to the heart of your swirl.

yesterday elaha asked me why i always look so mean in my neutral state. we were walking through a crowd of people and i guess i looked pissed.
it might’ve been the crowd, or it might’ve just been my face.
i’m actually pretty nice though, i think.

elaha, sadiq, anna and i all went to dance cave last night and it turned out to be really fun.
we all met up at anna’s new apartment before heading out, and it was nice to catch up with her and tell stories and throw around some light and mostly harmless gossip. it was also nice to introduce friends from different parts of my life. friends friends for everyone!
i bumped into my store manager at dance cave, and it’s always strange and fun to see my bosses outside of work. i guess sadiq’s a manager too, but not really in my mind.
sadiq thought he was going to hate dance cave based on limited previous experience, but he ended up loving it. he swears it must’ve been a different dj or something because they were playing his jams. and my jams. and all of our jams.
elaha and i went back to my place when the night was over, and then her ex showed up. it was the first time i actually got to meet her ex, and apparently it was the first time they’d seen each other in about a year. we sat and watched music videos from the early 2000s in my room and then we started watching the first episode of the face australia. i was paying attention to all of naomi’s shenanigans, but i think they were both very distracted.
then her ex said something rude(?) and there were some tears and it was all very tender and emotional but i was very tired. i left the room so they could hash things out for a bit and then they left at around 5ish.
i went straight to bed.
relationships are so weird.
today i met up with philip at eatons and we went into abercrombie to get my job back. now i can start making money again.
we wandered around for a bit and chatted and caught up and then he had to go pick up his girlfriend at somewhere near the ex.
when we parted ways i went to fido to finally get my phone sent away for repairs (it wouldn’t connect to wifi and the camera was broken). i had to wait until i got to toronto to do this because when i tried to do it in montreal, they didn’t have any loaner phones and it was horrible.
i’ve been using the loaner phone fido gave me today (pictured above) to take photos, and they’re so horrible that i love them.
i went home for all of two seconds and then went back to eatons to meet up with elaha, who wanted to shop for cute summer things. she bought “festival fit” shorts so now she has to come to osheaga.
we got some post-shopping sushi and then we headed to my place and watched the first couple of episodes of the new season of australia’s next top model.
it’s so nice that i have someone to watch trash tv with again.
sadiq came over at around 10ish and we drank a little bit before wandering outside (presumably heading to the annex) and trying to figure out what to do.
we ended up just grabbing a pizza (the pizza guy really liked us and gave us his number with an offer to give us free basic financial advice or something) and heading back to my place and watching the third and latest episode of the new season of austrlalia’s next top model.
sadiq wanted to dance though, so we’re just going to go out tomorrow.

january is always such an exciting time of year full of change, new things, spontaneity and fun. elaha and i were talking and she told me that she’s noticed this to be the time of year we finally start cheering up and recovering from our seasonal affective disorder. apparently it’s really bad when it starts transitioning into winter, but once everything’s steady, it gets better. i guess i never really put it together that way. this winter hasn’t been too bad at all though. i’m in a really happy place, which is nice.
last sunday, luke, joffjoff and i went to igloofest on a really last minute whim because it was so warm. we ended up having a pretty fun time, dancing in the crowd, bumping into a bunch of friends and making some new ones. apparently some people drove from really far away to attend igloofest – i didn’t know people did that. i can’t imagine driving so far just to dance in the freezing cold and dance, but sunday was really fun.
EDIT: nellie just messaged me and told me that it’s not that winter stabalizes, but that the days get brighter as of the end of december, so i’m less sad partially because i’m getting more vitamin d. so interesting!!
my new years was so messy. but lovely!!!
these photos are so warm and cute!!
ahhhhhhh~
i will do a recap of my winter break soon (future me get ready to reminisce!!).
nellie’s parents got her and a friend (she picked me yay) a spa day at bota bota for her birthday, so we went and got pampered and had a blast (thanks nellie!!)!!
we started by soaking in an outdoor hot tub for a bit. it was snowing outside and everything was pretty and white and i kept all my limbs in the tub to keep warm.
then we both got relaxing messages, but mine was part therapeutic because of my recent back pains. my masseuse told me i should go see an osteopath because my hip isn’t aligned properly, which is what’s causing my back to hurt. maybe i’ll actually go see one when i head home for the holidays because i just want my body restored to its natural equilibrium.
after the massages went into the sauna and then the steam room. we were both still really oily from the massages so we showered before getting mani-pedi’s with martinis (or, in nellie’s case, a latte).
i got my nails painted black (streetsmart) and it’s making me want to start wearing rings and necklaces and bracelets again. i also need to replace my lost earring. i feel like this added touch of edge and glamour requires accessorizing, and i want to be a magical mystery witch.
we gossiped a little while we got our nails did and we generally had a swell time. it was all very relaxing and luxurious.
we went to isakaya after the spa and i finally got to eat the lamb miso, which was delicious. the first time i tried ordering the lamb miso, they gave me miso ramen instead (i ate it anyway, it was fine) and the second time they didn’t have it, so this experience was long in the making, and it didn’t disappoint.
then we went to nellie’s and hung out for a bit before i headed home to basically bask in being able to do nothing for the next couple of days.
good day, good day.