i’ve been presented with an ultimatum; either improve or face the hatred of loved ones.
unfortunately, i’m not sure whether what is being asked of me is even possible.
tensions are high in the household. it’s almost like this isn’t even home anymore.
it’s scary because this thought is supposed to break my heart, but it doesn’t.
what am i becoming? what have i become?
i am selfish. i am inconsiderate. i am a liar. i take everything for granted. i can’t say ‘i love you’ when it really matters and i am breaking the hearts of those i love.
i need help.
and i know this, but for some reason, i just can’t stop.
and it’s scaring me.