i was trapped in my own consciousness – a weird, parallel reality – and then something broke, and i was left feeling all at once ashamed, embarrassed and guilty.
when i break things and i don’t know how to fix them, i kind of just tune it all out – i distance myself.
i have to find some way to center myself again – to remember who i am.
i want to see things the way they were before, but at the same time, my eyes have been opened to things i needed to see.