i was doing a reading for school that i’ve been putting off for a while when this song came on.

i started tearing up after a while and i couldn’t focus on the page and then i started thinking about how school’s ending in a few weeks and my whole life is about to change again and everything i’ve gotten so used to over these past four years is going to shift and i haven’t really let it hit me yet.

i thought about how at the end of every semester i always feel a little bittersweet, but this time it’s different – this time it’s really the end of an era. and i thought about how we’ve all been through so much and we’ve all grown in so many different ways and we’re all still just trying to find our way in the world and now we’ve all got some new beginnings that are equal parts scary and golden.

i thought about how i want to spend the last few moments i have here with the people i care about, on bright days and hot nights with good company. i want love and beauty and laughter and poetry seeping out of the first summer days.

i want a goodbye worthy of all the time we’ve spent together.

and then the song ended and i went back to my work.

gotta get these last few papers (and one final) out of the way so i can soak in all the freedom.

so much hope, always.