i’ve been struggling to break out of bad cycles.
i feel like i keep repeating the same mistakes, even though i should really know better by now.
they say that insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result, but it’s just so easy to say “alright maybe this time things will be different.”
you have a trigger, and then it’s all downhill – down that slippery, slippery slope – from there.
for instance:
i keep waking up later than i should and thinking, “it’s okay, i’ll wake up earlier tomorrow.”
and i keep spending way too long watching inane youtube videos, even when i’ve told myself i’m going to start being careful about what i consume.
and i keep stumbling over bad habits i’m trying to break.
but it’s okay because these are all just opportunities to do better.
i feel like i’m walking fine lines a lot of the time, but i keep forgetting, and i always end up leaning too far one way or the other.
life is about balance, and you can only have balance when you’re aware of the way things are.
i lose sight of things easily, it’s true, but i’d like to think i know how to find my way again too.