Month: April 2013

• i don’t get people pt. 2

  i somehow ended up at korova last night and i was dancing with my friend when this guy i supposedly know but can’t really remember came up to us and struck up a conversation.

  i left them alone a little while later to go do something i can’t recall.

  later on in the night i bumped into the guy who had come up to us and he asked me if my friend was gay and if we were together, to which i replied ‘nope’ to both.

  and then he berated me for letting him waste a good few minutes of his life.

  like, i don’t get that.

  first of all, i don’t really know you or your sexual orientation and i don’t like to just assume these things.

  second, if you think we’re together, why are you even firting with him in the first place?

  third, you were having a conversation and making a new friend. how is that wasting your time at fricken korova?

  everyone has more to offer than the prospect of sex, and i’m tired of people not being able to see that.

  like, i get it, sex is great and everything, but i wish more people were interested in other people as actual people, rather than just potential hook ups.

  having a conversation with someone is not wasting your time, unless it happens to be the most boring, stalest conversation on earth.

  getting to know someone never hurts.

  maybe it’s just me, but good friends are just as nice as lovers.

  April 30, 2013

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• tonight i will keep everything inside, because God knows it’s not worth it.

  April 30, 2013

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• i am going to start studying at 6pm.

  i am going to start studying at 6pm.

  i am going to start studying at 6pm.

  (or maybe 7pm)

  April 29, 2013

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  today was an incredible day, in quiet, subtle ways.

  i mean, it started with a huge puddle in our bathroom because our upstairs neighbour’s toilet is dumb, but that was sorted soon enough.

  laura asked if i wanted to get ice cream, so nellie and i met up with her and the rest of the crowd at wusky’s place.

  we got our ice cream and went to parc la fontaine and it was absolutely gorgeous. the sun was shining and conversation was flowing and everyone just seemed so content.

  good vibes all around.

  when it was time to part ways, joffjoff, nellie and i decided to get some early dinner at one of joffjoff’s new favourite restaurants (taverne urbaine or something along those lines) and it was perfect.

  and then i went to joffjoff’s to do some laundry.

  we watched paranormal activity 4 (not as scary as i’d hoped, and the ending was overhyped), and then laura and marcello came over to watch the new episode of game of thrones, which was amazing.

  the weather was gorgeous all day and night.

  it’s starting to feel like summer and i’m loving it.

  April 29, 2013

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  went to an amazing dinner with nellie on friday night after another day at oap. the restaurant was hella classy and the service was amazing.

  i had the rabbit and seafood rice.

  the waiter prepared my dish in front of me, and it was elaborate and impressive.

  then i went to a house party where i met a bunch of british/australian foreign exchange students.

  i also decided to just siege my friend’s bed for the night.

  it was very gracious of him to let me stay over.

  and when i woke up, there was still paint on my face.

  April 29, 2013

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• 

  as the school year comes to a close, i feel myself wanting to capture moments more and more. i want to remember things.

  i went to all you can eat sushi dinner with da boiz on thursday night after we spent some time relaxing at oap.

  it was really good up until eating became a task instead of a luxury.

  after two rounds of orders, robby said he was still hungry, and so we ordered more.

  it was far too much.

  fortunately, our amazing teamwork was enough to conquer dinner!!

  went back to their place to play mojito pong (mojitos courtesy of luke) and then we went to gerts to end the night.

  i got way drunk so ashton and charles walked me home.

  apparently i decided to scrape myself along a building on the way and now i have this weird, jagged scratch on my arm, but the night was still wonderful.

  gonna miss da boiz (and, you know, everyone else).

  April 29, 2013

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• so like i’m pretty good at beer pong and pinball apparently??

  April 24, 2013

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  young & beautiful – lana del rey

  the soundtrack for this movie is amazing.

  i’m so excited.

  April 22, 2013

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  i went to marcello’s bonfire last night in celebration of 4/20 and general togetherness.

  i’d eaten a couple of brownies and watched pineapple express with da boiz before going.

  the brownies were alright, but they weren’t as potent as i’d hoped they’d be.

  getting to the bonfire spot was a confusing little adventure, but we had a good little pack so it was fine.

  by the time we got there, i was so excited to have a comfy little seat in the heat of good company.

  everyone was vibing and it was very laid back and cozy and insouciant.

  i’m usually scared of the forest in the dark, but when you’ve got a fire going, friends by your side and the cityscape in the background, there really isn’t anything you can be afraid of.

  on a side note, there was one really drunk girl who eventually started ranting about how she didn’t know anybody and how the bonfire sucked and how she should’ve found something better to do than trek all the way up the mountain for it.

  i thought that was rude and unnecessary, but if you’re going to be a vocal downer, that’s your prerogative.

  a moment is only as beautiful as you let it be.

  some people have a knack for getting in their own way.

  i for one had an excellent time.

  April 21, 2013

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  over the love – florence and the machine

  UGH I LOVE HER.

  April 19, 2013

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  whatiloveaboutbeingqueer:

  I love being queer, perhaps even more than I love being gay or same gender loving, though in specific social contexts, I reclaim gay and self identify as same gender loving. Queer fits. It fits because it encapsulates the dynamism of my sexuality without imposing restrictions on my gender expression. Queer makes room for my femme ness and dis ability embodiment in a way that gay and same gender loving doesn’t. For me, queer means radiant darkness, radical love, and a million and one ways to resist and decolonize. Queer is imbued with deep spirituality and sweetness.

  -Edward Ndopu, Ottawa

  these are absolutely fascinating.

  April 16, 2013

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  What I love about being queer is the ability to grow and transform my sexuality. The recognition that our sexualities are complex and ever evolving, just as every other part of us, is a blissfully freeing thing. Regardless of anything else in the entire world, I am not bound by anyone else’s rules beside my own. Queer is freedom, possibility and space.

  –Kim Crosby, Toronto

  April 16, 2013

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• here we go again.

  every year as the academic year winds down, i think about how awful i am at being a student.

  here’s last year’s post:

  http://himynameisobed.tumblr.com/post/20862743768/the-student-life

  the difference is, this year i’m even less inspired to improve for the final stretch.

  like, i really, really suck at doing schoolwork and i’m surprisingly okay with it.

  i think it’s because i’m still doing pretty well on everything i’ve submitted so far this semester, so i’m not really worried about these few final projects even though they’re the most important.

  oh well.

  next year i’ll, you know, do better and stuff.

  April 16, 2013

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  this honestly infuriates me.

  “we don’t need any grounds for our actions this is the United States.” “Where do you think you are right now? This is the United States.”

  “You’re going shopping? WHAT STORES ARE YOU GOING TO?”

  WTF KIND OF QUESTION IS THAT.

  i don’t write out an itinerary every time i go to a fucking mall.

  i mean, the guy being questioned could’ve handled this better, but these cops are awful.

  i hate it when probably unintelligent people abuse petty positions of power.

  April 12, 2013

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• study break and a bit of thought.

  i’ve been sitting for the past few hours ruminating over three readings that i finished tonight, trying desperately to pick the best one to apply to my essay.

  i settled on the most obvious of the choices but at least now i have a solid train of thought.

  as a reward for this milestone, i’ve decided to take a study break, and now i’m lying here looking up at the obsolete lantern hanging right above my bed – lying here looking at the medley of photos i hung across the ceiling with a few clothespins and flimsy piece of string – and i’m thinking about how everything’s moving just a little too fast.

  i thought i’d be glad when the semester finally came to an end, and i probably will be, but there are so many goodbyes that have to be said and so many paths about to diverge – some temporarily, others not so much.

  it makes me sad to think that the friends i’ve gotten into the habit of seeing almost everyday will suddenly not be there anymore.

  but i guess with every end comes a little melancholy.

  and with every beginning comes the potential for something different, but perhaps just as wonderful as what you leave behind.

  this summer looks promising already, and i wonder how much of all this i’ll miss when i’m distracted by the heat of it all.

  sometimes i’ll miss a little, sometimes i’ll miss a lot, but i guess that’s the beauty of it.

  at least i’ve had these things – these shared moments of joy or sadness or anything else worth remembering – to miss.

  April 11, 2013

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