
this is my party face.
i’m putting it on because I’M FINALLY DONE FIRST YEAR.
now i can get back to sleep and pretty little liars.
LET THE SUMMER BEGIN.
dirty little whirlwind, i'm pinned to the heart of your swirl.
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i spent the afternoon sunsoaking with mimosas, music, a good book and good company.
we enjoyed it for a while – the heat and the light and the freshness of the passing breeze – but it wasn’t long before the thunderclouds came rolling in again.
good things never last very long.
i can already feel the seed of that familiar tree in the pit of my stomach.
the tree that will grow and spread its roots and sprout its branches and intertwine itself all along my insides.
look above at the overcast sky.
it seems there might be a storm coming.

montreal weather is ridiculously warm for this time of year.
so much so that laura, droe and i decided to go to rvc, get lunch and eat it on campus, basking in the glorious sun.
but the heat left us fatigued and so laura and i went back to res when droe had to go to class.
it was nice though, and campus is feeling alive again.
summer in march?
i’ll take it.

i’m so used to having late night guests and impromptu sleepovers.
all are welcome at my tiny nook in the wall – my little safe haven.
i’ve discovered i work better when sitting at a desk.
it just makes me feel like being productive.
it makes me excited about work.
even as i continue to procrastinate, i say in my head “yes! i am ready! i am not afraid of the words i have yet to write!”
but still, i hate schoolwork.

laura stumbled into my room high and eventually noticed blake’s hat on my lamp.
then she came up with a brilliantly hilarious idea.
at first, she suggested drawing a face on the lamp, but then we decided to print out an actual photo of blake and tape it on.
i don’t know why it was so funny. i guess it’s just because it’s so ridiculously creepy and awful.
“he’s the light of your life.”
“and whenever you don’t want him to see what you’re doing, just spin him so he’s facing the other way.”
laura is brilliant.

above: the portuguese man who served as me and yodit’s boyfriend for the night.
spent my last night in toronto watching chronicle with a few friends and then going out to dance at crews and tangos with yodit.
my first night in back in montreal was pretty fun, but more on that later.
for now, sleep.

met up with sorayray and natascha at 3.30 am for a late night snack at frans.
they’d gone to some place to dance to dubstep while i declined their invitation and stayed home due to fatigue.
but then they called me later and nothing could keep me from going out and getting food (and seeing a good friend i haven’t seen in months, i guess)!